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Everything just sucks. If it’s not the endless self hating, it’s the exhaustion from the constant coldness and bickering around me; my family can just be so freaking toxic. It’s like there’s nothing that isn’t a problem, and the negativity just wears off on you after a while. It makes me hate the world even more… I need to get away. But I can’t and I can’t deal with the fact I may have to sit around at home for another year with the same heavy atmosphere hanging over me and no freedom and no dreams coming true and no point to living at all. I can already feel the same old feelings coming back. How long before there’s just no way of feeling happy anymore? How much of existing like this will I be able to take? It’s scary and depressing but part of me really doesn’t even give a shit and that’s almost worse. Like I’ve given up before it’s even happened. Everything feels like effort and I’m beyond done… I’m just nothing. I want to be worth something so bad and I’m just not and I don’t even see the point in existing the way I am now. Why is change so long in coming? Ugh.

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Vent Post: / / / I feel like nothing is real and I'm not myself. I'm losing my identity and I can feel myself becoming someone else. They only distract me even more. The only thing that keeps me from letting go completely is my closest friends, who I constantly think are leaving me because of who I am. I've tried finding someone like me who I can reach out to, someone who knows my suffering. Maybe then I could find comfort in the fact that I'm not alone and move on but it seems like I'll never find them. Also these posts do help me get through the day at the moment and thank you for everyone who's supported me so far. You've made my life a lot easier. Anyway talk to you later / / / - if you want my personal dm me. / / / #depression #selfharmmm #selfharm #followforfollow #follow4followback #imdying #immyonlyfriendiguess #loveisfake #loneliness #cripplingdepression #memes #edgymemes #itsokay #mattiscrazy #edgy #thisisnotokay #depressionmemes #fml

I woke up kinda early today and it makes me so exhausted. I don't like waking up early.

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Noo ________________________________________________ Follow my backup @stolenmemes_backup ________________________________________________ ________________________________________________ ________________________________________________ #meme #fnaf #dank #dankmemes #lmao #lol #memes #funny #ayylmao #anime #kek #mlg #edgy #savage #pepe #bushdid911 #filthyfrank #nochill #hilarious #johncena #4chan #depressed #autism #weeaboo #cringe #jetfuelcantmeltsteelbeams #depression #papafranku #lmfao #rofl ( @ewan_unwin12 )

An early dinner this evening before a piano rehearsal was a hearty bowl of bean chilli with brown rice greens and avocado 🥑 all sprinkled with some pine nuts. This was so spicy - probably more than I would like, but so tasty and I made a huge batch that has at least two more portions which is great for the rest of the week - #healthy #healthyfood #healthyeating #theorganicfairy #organic #plantbasedfood #plantpower #naturalhealing #naturalremedies #foodie #naturalfood #depression #ptsd #recovery #mentalillness #mentalhealth #mentalillnessrecovery #gym #gymbunny #workout #motivation #exercise #postworkout #hiittraining #weightstraining #cardio

My snood makes me so happy and helps me feel safe on bad anxiety days. I had a shit day with my dyspraxia and managed to fall down the stairs and hit my head and my bad side. Which hurt basically all day which sucks. Kept tripping over the things and doing things wrong. It was a very anxious day but on the plus side my depression was better today! So it's great to take the small victories and celebrate those rather than focus on what went wrong. #pain #chronicillness #chronicpain #endometriosis #endosisters #endo #recovery #endosisters #endostruggles #endostrong #endostrength #spoons #spooniesister #spoonie #spooniewarrior #mentalhealth #mentalillness #ptsd #panicdisorder #anxiety #aspie #actuallyautistic #selfie #depression #snood #oops #dyspraxia