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Buongiorno ragazze buon sabato a tutte! Come state? Sta mattina non ho proprio voglia di uscire, fuori c'è un vento forte e freddo. Ma cerco di non farmi influenzare dal tempo sennò è la fine. Meno male che mi sono alzata più tardi perché mi porta a scuola un mio amico con la macchina, perciò sono più calma e non di corsa. E nella calma mi sono pappata una colazione davvero buona: •yogurt bianco •cereali misti •marmellata di mirtilli •cannella •mandorle •caffè Buonissima! Poi è venuto un bel mappazzone. Per la frutta secca e il cioccolato mi sono sbloccata, ma in parte, perché riesco a mangiarli sono a colazione. Piano piano si fa tutto. Buona giornata #anoressia #anoressianervosa #anoressiaitalia #edfamily #edwarrior #ana #anafighter #anawarrior #eatingdisorders #disturbialimentari #diarioalimentare #dieta #anorexia #anoressiarecovery #anarecovery #cibo #food #healtyfood #cibosano #fooddiary #healty #breakfast #colazione #mappazzone

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Haven’t had the time to update the blog because I’ve been having a hard time recovering. With exams around the corner it’s difficult to let my brain rest enough to recover after my last episode of severe anxiety. I’ll be back with more articles after mid-Febish and if anyone’s willing to write a guest post for me meanwhile that’d be great! :)

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️️️MAJOR TRIGGER WARNING️️️Wohoo🤧! I’m a disgusting, fat pig. Why do I deserve recovery🤔? I’m not sick enough, thin enough, or good enough to deserve any happiness or freedom. I thought I was doing okay, until I binged and purged 4 times yesterday. Today I ate 900 calories, yesterday I ate over 3000 calories, Wednesday I ate 800 calories, & Tuesday I ate 600 calories. I guess the only good thing that has happened as of recent is that it snowed Tuesday️ & I didn’t cut last night🤗. I’m sorry for being so negative today, I’ve just been having a shitty week. ️️ #anorexia #anorexianervosa #anorexic #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorders #eatingdisorderrecovery #healthy #anorexiarecovery #recovery #fruit #mentalillness #edrecovery #edfighter #weightloss #loseit #fearfood #prorecovery #fooddiary #edfam #edfamily #anafighter #scared #helpme

@w2bw17 1

I can't deal with the weight gain from IP. I hate feeling huge, I wish the mental health system would leave me please

@steffiir 8

Now you see me, now you don’t... I don’t talk a lot about my truth but I think it’s time I do. It is not easy to admit my life is currently controlled by my PTSD? The stigma that comes with it, like “oh really, you have PTSD? Where did you serve?”, the second I say well I didn’t serve, I was physically abused for 3 years, I’m still dismissed like I’m just talking out my ass because I’m not a war vet... yes this is a disorder common for military, BUT WAR IS NOT THE ONLY TRAUMA. Did you know only 4/100 men suffer from PTSD, but 10/100 women do... and most of this is silently because we are dismissed for having PTSD from sexual or physical assault. ANY TYPE OF TRAUMA CAN CAUSE PTSD! And anyone who has this knows it’s individualized, yes the symptoms are about the same, but the triggers ARE NOT!! You want to know why I smoke so much goddamn weed... so I don’t have vivid terrifying nightmares, either that or I don’t sleep. I only recently accepted how badly I exhibit behaviors of Hypervigilance, constantly anticipating danger, always on the lookout for signs that things are about to get bad, walking on eggshells 24/7, taking many daily precautions to prevent anything from happening, going from danger alerted adrenaline rushes to extreme fatigue and exhaustion. I’ve stopped being able to handle some loud noises, like unexpected door slamming( I think this will give me a heart attack one day) I literally go straight into panic mode even if it’s the wind. I am having a very difficult time over the last few days, things have gotten really bad and I’ve keep being thrown back into 2014, but then coming out of it angrier and more resentful than before, but at the same time smarter and more aware... it’s like it’s the same, but in reality it’s not. Constantly going between blaming myself and blaming others, a constant battle that doesn’t really exist... I love this community on IG and you wanna know why, because I’ve completely isolated myself in reality, I can’t be around people and feel normal because I have these intrusive triggers, thoughts, memories... I have a hard time functioning like a normal person in society and it has taken me 3 years to finally admit how bad it