I find the future to be blurry,
yet blurry seems to be the new black
What more is there to ask for
when you've already given so much
Even with someone staggering at my side,
I am still alone
with not even myself as company
Another period of happiness just ended.
And I've been looking for someone to put up with my bullshit
I can't even leave my bedroom so I keep pouring
This is not o k a y
Cease to exist.
You're so cold.
I still dream about you,
the scraggly hairs on your chin
to the way your tongue touches your teeth,
every time you speak.
Only for a moment, then the moments gone
Okay, for the most part
Heart and soul, I begged to be adored
Stop bamboozling me, asshat.
I'm so blue
I don't know what to do